Where am I going with my life,
I wish it could all end,
Wake up every morning and think
"I have to do this again"

I'm thankful for my friends
Who are still around,
But who do I go to
When life goes down

Maybe I should have been a criminal
The way I always was,
But I made a promise to be good
Yet there's still no love

Trying to stay strong
But I've lost all hope,
There's a Vatican full of demons
And I'm the pope

Pretending to be happy and fine
I wear that cloak,
But pull the sheets aside
And you see a hoax

They say when you see an
Opportunity you should grab it,
Instead I've formed my life around
Bad habits

And I know smoking is
Bad for your lungs,
But I figured it's better than breathing
The smoke from a gun

"Please don't **** yourself
We need you alive"
If you knew the pain I was in
You would let me say goodbye

Cause I've cried, I've given up,
Please don't look at me,
I'm a shameful *******
So don't feel sympathy

In my own life
I don't have a voice,
I would love to die
But I don't have a choice

I promised to stay alive and survive
But I can't live,
All I can think is "Why did this happen
To me, I was only a kid"

Daddy hurt mommy and
My sister was my only friend,
After she was forcefully violated
I haven't seen that sister again

I lost that precious girl to
Drugs and gang violence,
I still hear her crying in the
Midst of loud silence

So hear I am,
Alone with nobody left,
Cause nobody wants to put up with
Me when I'm upset

And yet that same person will
Beg me to keep fighting,
If you think hearing about it is bad
Then imagine living these writings

Cause this is a true story
Not some kind of riddle,
As scared as I was, I wish I would've
Died in hospital

But due to a promise,
I won't be the cause of my life to end,
So now I wake up from my sleep,
And I have to live this again