My own guardian angel, You make me laugh and smile When all I want to do is cry in pain. You're always there when least expected And most needed. In a nearly empty cafe I find you Alone Drinking some coffee You see me and smile You sense something is wrong From the frown upon my face. I talk. You listen. I talk more. You make stupid jokes. I lightly chuckle. That's not good enough for you. You poke me and tickle me. I finally leave out an unfamiliar burst of laughter. I smile. You give me support when I'm weak; The weakest I've ever been. I don't want to need you But I do. I try to push you away. It doesn't work. You're my best friend-- My guardian angel Your touch sends shivers down my spine I wonder if you feel them too. You stroke my side gently And pull me into your protective hold. I want to resist, But I can't. It's starting to hurt. For you are in love with another. Yet you still smile at me with those eyes. You touch me as if I'm a delicate flower. How I wish you felt what I do When you caress my arm gently. When we hold hands I can't help but feel like there's more. Something there. Something you're so unaware of. I know you love her. I know you're happy. I love seeing you happy, Oh, how I wish I was her. But you're only my guardian-- My best friend. Nothing more-- Nothing less. And I will never let you go, Even through the suffering. For we will always be there for each other, And love each other, Even if it's not the love I want.