i am the man that you don't need anymore just another thing you left behind in an empty house i'm still feeling vulnerable like the forgotten iron with the burnt face frazzled cord & i still crave the precious gem of your soul miserably because i am a fool or a hummingbird addicted to sugar water icicles
i wanted to know where you came from because my heart wanted to sing to you like a nervous chickadee through the bubbly white noise & champagne static of the bar where we first met
i wanted to know what you see when you look up through the state of grace that you live in if it's only the sun or 40,000 angels buried in dust & clouds so i could write it down or paint it on a stretched tight canvas & show you my work
i still want to know where you run to when the rain comes down in sheets & your hair kisses dark streaks onto your cotton shirt
the moon stays up late to show me how far down i am in the galaxy of freckles dusted across your shoulders your hair is a fiery tangle of comet tails escaping in knots from my wet fingers your body is a mystical collection of dark matter screaming blue eyes & all i ever wanted was to be destroyed by the cyanide on your lips
i filled the bathtub with purple swan orchids & sprawled out on the opulent karastan rug like a lame duck waiting on a lilypad for your footsteps & fingers to astonish me with dizzy incandescence