I thought I forgot.
though that
what you did
didn't effect me
but now
a year later
anxiety grips my breath
and suddenly
1 year 2 months 3 days
later and the words
tumble out of my mouth
in the car
to a stranger
and I tell her
the way you
fed me a pill
and another drink
and asked
but I said no
and you didn't listen
and my clothes
were on the floor
and I couldn't move
my breath was gone
the same way
it is today
has been for
1 year 2 months 3 days
and I cry every time
I make love
to a beautiful man
with stars in his eyes
when he looks at me
and I never understood
why and he would
hold me, shush me
pet my hair and ask
what he did wrong
but it wasn't him
it was you
1 year 2 months 3 days
ago you took my
clothes off
took my breath
and left me
a mess to be
cleaned up
and its been so long
and all this time
I never knew
you took more from me
than my clothes
and my good time
that night
you took my
peace of mind
my carefree attitude
and left me
breathless
broken
1 year 2 months 3 days
later.