This is it, tonight I will take flight. I am going on a trip and I might not make it back. Soon the pain will melt away and all will be well. My problems will be gone. Just a spoon some heat and soon I will feel the warmth through my veins. No pain just joy that may never end. Living is so hard, perhaps dying would be better. I am not sure, but soon I will know. Will I touch heaven or will I come crashing back to reality, no one can say for sure. What I do know is that I think I have it right. The mixture is perfect and I just need the courage to do it. I will just let the pain in a little more and it will push me over the edge. This time I think I will make it right.