I wish i didnt make mistakes
Maybe i wouldnt feel this way
Maybe i wouldnt be the **** up i am now
Maybe i wouldnt be dying on then inside from the pain i feel when i make mistakes
Im told by many people that people makes mistakes
But do people make mistakes every ******* day
Do people mess up every **** thing up every single day
Im told that people arent perfect
Well what if i want to be perfect
What if i dont want to make mistakes that hurt others
And when it hurts others i feel the pain
The pain hurts so much
And this pain i feel is always the same
It always happen the same way
I make a mistake
I sometimes think to myself am i a mistake
Am i the reason for your pain
If i leave would that fix things
I wonder to myself what people say behind my back
And when i think about it
It's probably true
I wonder to myself am i a problem
If i would leave forever or just never existed would everyone be alright
I dont even know anymore
I dont even know how i feel
I just dont want to cause pain for others no more
So if im a problem I'll leave
If im a problem I'll be gone forever never to bother you ever again
But i would still love you when i left
I would be glad to leave or even maybe leave this world if would stop your pain
The pain you inflict to yourself because you think you cause me pain when really you dont cause me pain
Its more like you fix everything but
I feel as if i cause you pain
And i cant talk to you like i should be able to
I just cant do it i get flustered
But when i think about leaving i get scared
I start to feel lonely and depressed
I cant think straight
Wierd thoughts come to my head
Ones that are harsh
Ones that are not able to solve my problems
And I realize i cant live without you
That when i wonder if thats how you think
Thats when i keep thinking and thinking and thinking
The thoughts just keep pouring in
They dont ever stop