life isn't what you make of it. its what you've made. life is constantly living with the aftermath of the mistakes you've made if you're prone to making them it's a recurring past tense result check-sum of your most fantastical fuckups
i could make a video right now, 45 minutes of me staring blankly at the camera with tired eyes and a 5 o clock shadow, blinking lazily and sighing intermittently and it would be an accurate description of how i feel about the weight of living at just this moment