when you sleep its almost like all of your pains don't exist, like they went far far away, the hard part is waking up.
the first thing you remember is the last thing you thought about before you went to sleep.
and that's when you start to feel the horrible ache in your chest, when you wake up hoping to see the one person you love most beside you, because if they were there, not just in your thoughts, maybe the ache would dull, maybe every morning wouldn't be as painful, maybe then it would be okay.
but they aren't there, making every morning just as painful as the last.