Been doing absolutely great
Emotionally and physically
Been great feeling like this again!

But being me...
Always seems to happen..
Always so weak!

Happy days and happy thoughts
Spontaneous and vibrant
Being the good me

But the other me
Just kicks in unexpectedly
Out of nowhere
I am weak

I love waking up
My son crawls into bed next me
Little birdy and monster kisses
Starts our day fantastically

Then she reappears
Changes everything
Dynamics to personalities..
She becomes weak..

Waking up is no longer easy
Dreadful to say the least
Fun drawn out of me

Miserable days
That lasts for weeks...

When will she realize this is not me!
This is who I do not want to be...