I sit here looking at the clock, While time passes with every tick - tok. With every second I grow older, and start to die. I just want to give up, I just want to cry. That's why I sit here writing this letter, Because after what I'm about to do... Things will be somewhat better. I go and get my friend out of it's hiding place, And lock the door just in case. I start drawing on my arm with my blade, As my life slowly fades. Images are racing. My heart is pacing. I start to drift into my endless sleep, And I here a faint floor board creek. There's banging at my door, and yelling of my name. But I have to say, I feel no shame. You are the reason I made myself do this, You made my life a living hell "Oh Mommy dearest." Tick - toc, tick- toc is all I hear, As my life slowly disappears.
I wrote this a few years ago, when I hit a deep depression. I have since come out of it, but these poems are a sharp reminder, as well as my scars, as to what I went through.