this is how I get over you

last night
I was done and
you were just a friend again and I
wanted to know your opinion but I
didn't ache when
I knew you were with her
and didn't text back

the night before that
your words left me
an incoherent mess
on the floor
tears leaking from my eyes
but smiling

and tonight I'm thinking about you again

and maybe it'll be like this for a while
maybe there will be nights where
I can smile without any sadness or
want
behind it
and maybe there will still be nights when
my hips still
****
involuntarily at the thought of your name

and maybe I won't be able to say
one day
that was when I got over you
but I may
one day
be able to say I'm over you
and realize
I mean it