my eyelids shut out the light
with every drape of darkness
that I blink over my eyes
every flutter burns a memory
into the back of my mind
the sun glowing red through your curtains
like a flashlight through skin
mornings of waking in your arms
you land like dust on my lips
the stumbling, drunken nights
where you spilled the glass of your heart
and I cupped my caloussed hands
just to catch a few drops
you used to know when I was scared
and you used to hold me closer
I can't find a way to turn time back
when you could love me sober