proper verbalization is impossible when all emotions build up into a castle of nothing where all i'd like to do is throw you down a spiral staircase and leave you there to decompose. my heart is a tomb and i've dug you out.
so young, and willing to go along with all requests and just believe there's love where there isn't. misty led me to the fishbone dreamlife and i let myself get lost among the ribs.
your ribs. they're bruised. when you laugh you ache when i push you burn. and now the thought of you in pain isn't in regret, nor delight, just apathy.
i once was a chain smoker. one after the other, and i'd come back later for more. but there's only one cigarette left burned down to the filter and i don't want anymore.
of course, i'm rather fickle so generally i'll go back for more but is it out of genuine want or addiction? do i stay in this bed of tobacco locked in it's embrace out of habit?