Restless and forsaken
Fingertips shaking and heart racing
Her head is not at home on her own pillow
It is simply too empty without him

Alone she tosses and turns
Doubling back to revist her regret
While trying to move forward all the same
Yet nothing will ever be as before

It was a simple summer setting
Nighttime rain the product of an overcast day
She drove home alone with tears to rival it
But no thunder cloud was as black as her heart

Breaths become gasps
The heart inside her must belong to another
For she left her own with the boy of her dreams
Left it with him and then left without him

To this day she cannot cope
The memory haunts her and will not relent
She is lost along a path she has never known
Footsteps follow her wherever she goes

Truth cuts to her core
As she tries to deny its presence
Finding a dozen reasons not to love him
Is not enough to justify the lies

She sifts through her thoughts
Trying to tell herself he is not perfect
Remembering the times he has inflicted pain
But the truth remains she is guilty of more