Every time I think about it
Dream about it
I’m taken back to age 17
I didn’t know what it would mean
For my future, my life, my soul
Taking its toll, it eats away at me
Acidic memory, burning every part of me
Taking over me and taking me apart
My mind is where it starts
Putting every memory on rewind
Until I’m so far behind I can’t catch up
Freezing me in a moment I wasn’t strong enough
Taking over my future with the past
Replaying over and over again
How long will this last?
The burning acid moves to my eyes
Proceeding to terrorize every time I blink
I watch it over and over again
I can’t think
Memory spreads now to my heart
Tearing it apart
Refusing to let any new emotion in
Restricting me from starting again
Holding my heart hostage with guilt, pain and fear
Frozen in time; I’m stuck here.
The only release
When my heart skips a beat
Although the guilt is never complete
Temporarily it leaves
Acidic memories falling down my face
Taking with them everything about that place
Allowing me to escape, for a just a short time
To live in the now and leave the past behind
I can’t control the memories
When they will appear again or how long they will last
I can’t hide from the past or pretend it wasn’t real
I can’t control how I feel
My life is dictated by this painful, burning memory
But by remembering, it’s almost as if you’re still with me