I am the kind heart,
the one who hurts if anyone else is in pain.
The one who hardly gets anything in return,
for the entirety of her heart and soul she gave.

The one who, people seem to pass over.
Yet is always there for everyone else.
The one who has chosen to just let it all go.
Who lost her reason to fight.

Who lost her reason to live.
Lost everything inside of her heart.\
And her mind goes to quickly that it stalls
and the pain floods through her body.
its paralyzing and unforgiving.

Its too ****** much to even begin to think about
when you dont wanna go forward.
when you want to close your eyes and never wake up again

when you're not you
When  your worst nightmares come true
Then, even worse when the nightmares of your children are a reality
when the only reason you ever kept going
is gone

what is there to live for
what is there to believe in

it's all gone.
andrew hung himself in his closet

brenton 3 am, may 24

the ****** train killed my best friend.

dad tried to light a smoke

he burned his face bad

mom called me to help

i called 911

dad died.

friends left.

husband cheated.

lost your job on stress leave.

took him back.

got beat up

he cheated again

you lost another home

your sister calls the cops.... lies about you

they want jail time.

your mother hates you

your family doesn't give a flying ****

not even a distant cousin

your a useless joke

cause you just cared

you dont have much at all

and you seem to **** that up pretty good too

you left him to be happy?

we took your children

gave them to mom that hates you

who lets them near the sister who is ruining you

and ignores you.

we took your reason to live

so please just go die in a hole somewhere

and never harass the liars

what do you have

what does it matter

i am nothing

i am no one

i lost my everything

cause he was too angry

the one time i quit being able to forgive