I’ve got this picture in my head of who I want to be,

this beautiful, self assured, dark and twisted kind of person.

who lives in a loft and has a mattress on the floor

and answers the door in lace underwear and an oversized button up.

I’ll always have a coffee in my hand

and I’ll carry a bag with a notebook in it.

My finger nails and toes will always be painted

and I’ll wear heels almost always.

At night, I’ll go out by myself in my black dress and I’ll go to a dark underground jazz club,

where I’ll drink red wine and step outside to smoke a joint.