you make me laugh and cry in the same day

i tell you this
you answer,  i do that to myself
i say
it's me,  me i'm talking about
because of you
my eloquence is gone
now i'm fumbling like a fool reaching for words to keep you
when it's your words i need
just those words
i need you in my life
is it that hard for you to execute
those patterns of caring
of loving
of remembering

yes

one day i will break you
and break down that wall of resistance
and when that happens
will i love you even more?

no

it's not possible to love you more
than i love you right now

i love who you are
don't change
not even for me