I am in pain
My heartbeat pains me just as much as every breath I take

I could say I hate feelings but hate is a feeling too
I could say I want to be numb to the pain but numbness is a feeling of not feeling any feelings

So how should I feel?
You delete the pictures but the memories remain
I can smell the pain I am going through, that’s probably why it hurts when I inhale

I can see it everywhere I look, it hurts more when I close my eyes

You try to cry it all out but you still feel the pain

I miss your touch. That’s probably why these feelings hurt the way they do

I miss hearing your voice, that’s probably why it hurts when I mention your name

The more I try to stop hearing, seeing, smelling and feeling this pain, all I am left with is a bitter taste in my mouth

You get angry at them, but what do you gain?

I love you. I miss you.

I hope one day you will come back to your senses

SKIzzY
01.12.14