My heart aches to be loved
To be moved in many ways
But my feelings were always shoved
Into the dark, excruciating haze
I want to feel something
Anything in fact
But my heart is on a hinge
Feeling numb, my emotions going blank
It's cold in here
Filled with my salty tears
It starts to beat slower
Breaking into large shears
I barricade myself
Afraid of being loved, not being hurt
My feelings bailed
Saying I'm a curse
My feelings back stabbed me
I feel so paralyzed
Now I know, now I see
It's my own personal sign
I wasn't meant to be loved
No man can fix my agonized heart
It's never going to be enough
To fix what's been long broken and deserted.