I could not take it any longer,
all i wanted was sleep, but that would be unhealthy
to sleep with all these thoughts, worries, anger, and sadness bottled up inside,
i don't know what to do anymore.
they always told me to stand up for myself,
to say something if i dislike whats going on,
to do what makes me happy.

its more like
stand up for God and religion and honesty
say something if its against christian morals or is ******
and of course, do what makes you all happy.

it makes me wonder how often you realize your contradictions,
your irrationality,
your irony,
and the fact that you don't even make sense at all.

so now,
do i chose what pleases you?
i'm stuck in a chasm,
and there is a ladder made out of mazes on the way out
my patience for mazes is not enough
i do not wish to stay