tears like fire, the truth
burning your flesh as a
string of swears flow
off your tongue, every-
one tells you they told
you so and you know
that they are right

anger, darkness, suicide,
doubt, hatred, self-hatred,
and self-loathing fill you
and consume you and in
your heart you feel the
beating stop

this is what death feels
like until:

you stop

no no no no no no no
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you say to yourself,
wetness burning in
your eyes and freshly
opened wounds

no no no no no no no
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no more, you scream and then fall
silent

no more,
you whimper

crawling to the mirror is like torture,
looking, seeing yourself; sockets puffed
and red, examining your unkempt hair
and the rawness of your soul

you scream, break the mirror
with your hands, and take in
the scene you’ve created

the blood looks rich and
vibrant and reminds you:

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you remember you are human,
you must take a deep breath
and move on