Lying awake night after night,
So many thoughts being processed,
I tend to my desires,
Thinking of all the possibilities and all the outcomes,
They seem to end in a disaster,
Ha,
Just like everything in my life,
My aching heart tries putting in a word or two,
I just remind it what happened the last time I listened to it,
It got broken,
And so I try to focus in on the thoughts,
Each one making no sense,
Yet complete sense,
The bad thoughts mix in so well with the good ones,
So everything in me is all jumbled up,
And I lie there for hours trying to figure it out,
Figure out the things that make me happy,
And I realize it's all the things that make me sad,
The Love I want always perishes,
The load of responsibilities that is sometimes my escape only grows,
My Friends all fade and leave me alone,
My Life grows dimmer,
And piece by piece I see myself loosing everything,
And I know happiness is only temporary,
But that temporary time has yet to come,
And before I sleep I ask,
Will It Ever?