Now, in the fast-forward pace of things, thoughts, feelings, life..
Every drop of the pouring rain is carrying the same burden I have been holding in for the last couple of hours.
I have this unusual desire to collide with the ground.

I have yet to have a taste of slumber, not even a blink.
I can't afford to pause and linger, or stop the time.
If I sink deep down inside myself I will burn.
My heart might punch a hole out of my chest and I fear it might leave.
This is my defeat; my price was gone.

I am still standing in the middle of a blank slate.
In time, rivers will flow down from my eyes again.
Nose red as fire, face swollen and crumpled.
Loneliness will creep in and disappointment will drown my whole being.

For now, I must stay away from the dark.
Hold it in, keep it safe until it is forgotten.