I lose count of how many times I am catcalled on my way to the gym I think that maybe turning around, eating an entire pizza and never coming back would stop this from happening I realize it wouldn't I would still be a woman
"Smile baby," I hear as I leave my car Just 3 hours of sleep to get me to where I am and I am tired enough to silence a response from my ******* but not enough to quit
A guy standing at the bus stop sees my hands wrapped and tells me that boxing is **** I wonder how clenched fists self-protection and the desire to make it home alive each night is **** but I don't ask
When I don't hit the bag hard enough I remember the force of his body and I let my knuckles do the speaking there is no stopping after the rage is reborn
A man tells me how lucky I am to have this figure ignorant to the fact that hard work is nothing remotely similar to luck a string I have been stretching and pulling that is what my body is luck, I think about how he will never have enough of it to touch me
I like the way it feels to be sore from something willingly to get up from the ground without a hand helping these bruises are proof of my attempts
I have been practicing my run to make up for all of the times I havent had the guts to my limbs are reaching forward for every time they've been held back
I like to say that survival is a choice made in the aftermath of destruction the conscious decision to chew through broken glass rather than swallow it whole survival is not as simple as I didn't die it is deciding not to
Hand squeezing wrist, he told me I'd never be enough for anyone anyway well today I am enough for me
I'm working on myself for myself building ash into bone into muscle this is strength learning how to show this is me learning how to pull through this is me doing exactly that