So So many tears, So much waisted time dwelling under tormented fears, paralyzed and comfy in the warmth of inaction and ennui carressing what is thought a Soul, stoking a secret flame of desire for self-deprecation despair and sadness over what may have been, what was then if only. . . What coulda, shoulda, woulda. Only to renounce this moment, this now, this present. And every now before and every now hereafter. Identity becomes despair. Existence becomes sadness.