this is not the path I wanted to go this is not how I wanted us to grow I’ve been down this path once before to know this is the feeling of tumbling down a rabbit hole what have I done or rather, what have I let happen I said I wanted us to stay pure please please don’t push me down the rabbit hole I said you don’t know how hard it was for me to find my way out the first time and you don’t know I haven’t been home since haven’t smoothened out creases in this rumpled white dress haven’t found how removing these stains work and yet, here I am, again you know, mud stains on this white lace seem fitting you took my hand and led me down the aisle an aisle I knew I’d walked before I recognised the rotting leaves the trees that seemed to wail “you should leave” I knew soon we would arrive at the rabbit hole I never pushed you away, only said please white rabbit, I should’ve known you were the white rabbit entranced by pocket watches only counting hours ticking off seconds and watching time closely this is the hour you will take me by the hand this is the minute I fall for you this is the split second before I say “I do” white dress, you chose this for me, white rabbit just to see at the altar how I would look in white but sullied “I still can’t believe how you look next to me, just like a ******* bedroom scene” we used to be so decent mud stains, creases, the only things sincere about me right now white rabbit, you knew the exact moment I would fall down the rabbit hole again