I have learned that the best way to avoid punishment is to break yourself. Snap yourself fast, when the cops get to the scene you already have given yourself a ****** nose, justice never goes overboard and given how much punishment you need you can change it. Internal bleeding is impossible to measure. No bull crap it needs to hurt. When they leave you know exactly where the pieces are and put them back no issues. It takes the sting out of a shot to give it where ever you like. I can’t tell if it’s because I broke myself so many times or because I have sold myself or because I know my weak spots, the pain shoots straight into my veins. I’m no glass soldier. If needed I could do combat with the greatest gods, I have already seen the surface of the sun, surfed on a cloud above the tallest mountain, been messaged by Jesus in a steam-bath had the president treat me as equal all without earning half of it, yet I did some kick-*** ****. How much of what I did is only because of what came before me? I would not have seen the things I have seen without my teachers and saints. How much of a race is getting you to the line in near flawless conditions? Is the reason why my parents considering divorce doesn’t bother me because— I or my parents or whatever combo have made me have a bullet proof form or because I have never lost big enough to get scared? Is the reason why I’m not scared because I have taken heavy punishment or nowhere near enough or because punishment has always been a hit and run? I often too modest often fake modest often genuine do you know how hard it is to be tell your own authenticy — even in that question— when you know at once of your brillance and that you lost your social security card at first chance? Perhaps I’m just a tad dramatic, forgive me but I feel this all I apolgize.