you know, i knew you were special that wednesday afternoon in october the one where your hand went searching for mine as we walked around the city of canterbury we sat in that hollow subway up stairs where there was one other guy and i ate my sub so messy- symbolic for how it would all end- underneath the table my feet were on top of yours i always wanted to be touching you we sat in that subway for 3 hours i didn't want to move just sit opposite you and watch your beautiful eyes and beard you were always so breathtaking and weird to look at its in that moment i think back now that we are no longer together i know i loved you and im glad i gave you the parts of me i did I'm sorry i fell asleep watching donnie darko that night i know it was your favourite movie and you wanted to give me a piece of you too. i want you to know you did. i also want you to know i was never going to be enough