he goes searching for love in the wrong ways guided in directions by bedsheets and lost by indulgence in the temporary decadence and narcissism - a mapless journey lead in the retrospected direction of peer fulfilled gratification, met already past the point of no return by a social gathering of perceptions and conceptions towards a tangible reason - the smell of sweat, consecutive exhales and inhales pinpoint reminders after the fact, held tight by only bedsheets, watching her get dressed pulling what she wore out that night over a coiffure of tangled penitence as it rises above the neck of her shirt - sitting admit the marrow of vision lies an exiting woman, usually brown hair, sometimes blonde, behind the marrow lies thoughts of penance that digs and widens the crevice of perception deeper and deeper - at times of stagnant intimacy, intimacy that redefines ephemeral, retrospected notions replay and stain the mind of women, usually brown hair, sometimes blonde - by this time he rode the the wrinkles on the bedsheets too far destined to temporarily subside the loneliness, only to find out in the present that the destination reached has a population so nullified that where he came from was far better off.