i shower this is not an unusual occurrence i like to wash off the ***** feeling that having nightmares constantly night after night brings upon my body and soul
today i shower not to cleanse myself of a person but to force the feeling of texas dirt deep into my marred skin i harshly push the sound of lightning storms into my eardrums
i let the stinging nettles really my own fault for not wearing boots out in the texas woods wrap themselves around my sweaty ankles dragging me deep into the ground closer to him
though are you still above ground my dear uncle you would think that after all the funerals i have been to i would know how these things work huh
i donβt want to imagine you cold and alone in a lifeless and sterile morgue so instead i will imagine you at the lake when you and lana built a treasure chest out of sand
i wonder if you locked away her heart that day so that when you had to leave she would only feel a floating brokenness like the distant ache of a broken bone always there but just in the background
i know that that is not what my father feels i remember talking on the phone to you and answering the phone with hi pops but then your laugh gave you away your laughs are different but they both come from deep in your bellies
if i could take away my fathers pain i would and i would transfer it on to myself so he could only feel that broken bone ache because my dear father he went from a whole to half of a soul
My father's brother passed away a few days ago. So, I wrote this poem.