What I am most afraid of is disappointing you

What I hate most is that the shame you give
Stabs deeper than the shame I give myself

What I struggle with most is your lack of understanding
Because  I think you should be able to understand me better than anybody

What I am jealous of most is that I am no longer your favorite child
But I am your only child

What I wish most you'd stop doing is talking about my size
And making faces EVERY time I pick clothes that you think seem large in size

What I miss most is seeing you as my hero
Because you raised me strong and always made sure I had whatever I wanted

What I hope for most is that one day I can trust you with my life story
Without you judging me too harshly

What I want most is for you to be proud of all I've overcome
Without belittling me

Mom what I want is for you to be my mom and just love me the way I am, regardless of all my imperfections, and if there is anyone who should fulfill that want it's you.