I never loved a man in my 35 years this much..
And I'm terrified...
And it's wrong...
I know this is wrong.... indescribably wrong....
This moral dilemma...
And I can't stop loving you..
I'm scared of loving you this much...
I'm scared to stop...
Not because you'll be gone...
But I fear never finding this again....
My heart hasn't stopped pounding through my chest...
And everything in me tells me to stay...
I'm not a runner ...
In this fear , I'm a fight not a flight girl...
However I know that I should walk away...
Never start a war that you can't afford to lose....
I don't believe I can afford this luxury...
I don't believe I should be kissing you ...
But I can never think with your tounge in my mouth. ..
I can't afford to love like this...
I can't afford to be held like this...
This describeless bliss...
This love that is achingly, morally, life altering wrong..

E.J.M.