i am mystified
at the utter unexplanation
of my explanation
there are no books
on this holiest of earths
that can explain
my exhalation
i am alone
in this experiment
doomed
to live my days in this
darkest of curses cast unto me
I can not explain it
recede into myself
one, two, three pills
so I can better it
turn the transmission off
apologize
for ever looking to find
something
which was right there
I cower
I holler
in silence
inside
i'm hollow
my eyes hold no depth
I become a shell
prone to break with a breath
if I were to crack
there would be nothing
nothing at all
nothing left.
I am dancing
waiting
to be mystified again
I ask forgiveness
I see myself in a mirror
I see the bad I could hurt myself
I could run
I am the animal