I couldn't sleep.

My breathing speeds up a bit.

My breathing gets faster and I feel... "blank."

My chest hurts.
I want to cry.
I don't even open my mouth.
I cant.
I realize what's happening an I try to calm down.
I do breathing exercises.
I think about if I should mention this to someone.
I feel nothing now.
They chest pains stopped.
The breathing is slowed.
I sit there as the voices continue.

One tear rolls down my cheek.

I think about how no one is next to me.
No one is with me when I need someone.
That's how it usually is.
I just keep a lot of it in.

Another tear rolls down my other cheek.

I just close my eyes and try to sleep again.