I can’t do this again
You drag me in
Like I inhale smoke
From cigarettes

I didn’t smoke before you
I didn’t choke on pills
I didn’t drink my weight
I didn’t cry

But I found you
And I was falling down
Like a flightless bird
Pushed out of the nest

And I hit that ground
So ******* hard
I lost my breath
And my ability to speak

Just like the way I did
When you kissed my lips
And told me you loved me
For the first time

But then you left
You left me again
And again
Time after time

You are trying to come back
But how do I handle that
I don’t think I can
But dear god do I love you