Deep deep down there, in between the desire and the urge to become the heir, is a state of trepidation as what is at stake is your reputation. Where feeling is of a very diminutive form And to ye affluence is the first most prior.
Ultimately you shall undergo penitence. The sorrow , the misery for which you are responsible. Your heart was, for instance, Allowed to misuse your soul which wasn't advisable. Alas, leave it there itself, for it is undoable and irrevocable.