“’Have you ever seen a man?’ I knew he meant naked. He disrobed.Then he just stood there in front of me and I kept on staring at him. Then I felt very depressed.”* - Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
Afternoons while the dog sleeps turned over on the side and i wonder what organs i push on liver? spleen? clean the bile for me, please
and then I shall leave extra gratuity. Please don’t cry, I feel a hand on my hipbone my eyes pressed against the olive cushion
The green and the wood of the trees blur into one outside my june july window much like the book of Esther i look for a place inside
myself to stop the killing of decency inside myself and i cannot muster it much like anything else. I wish i had never asked that December night to go
I stop the disgust cut it at the bud find a way to necromance up my personality the outside is smelling of charcoal
i stare at his flesh, then at mine then at the floor.
he says we shall wait all i want and now he is looking at me with doe eyes and i nod. I nod. I feel i am ok now.