I was sick
and not the type where you catch the flu
and within a couple days you feel better thanks to all those antibiotics
but my sickness was something different then the flu
only my flu did not involve my body
more so my brain
that no amount of painkillers could ease my pain

I could picture life
school and everything else continuing on without me
maybe there would be sorrow, maybe even guilt at first
but in my brain everone would be fine
everyone would eventually get over it
everyone would continue on with their lives
and soon enough everyone would have already forgotten,
leave behind the girl who killed herself

because that is the one thing that school does not teach you
they don't teach you that as humans we forget
about how long time passes because we've been too caught
up in everything else to realize that the world around us is still moving
that time doesn't stop for anyone
and that was the reason why I believed everything would be okay
everyone would be fine