in your last text you told me
that you thought I didn't care about you.
well, that's not true.
i cared too much about you
and it hurt
so much.

i didn't want you to know how much i cared
for you. for only you.
i had eyes just for you.
my heart stopped around you.
my lungs were heavier around you.

i miss you.
i still think about you almost every day.
people say you're supposed to think of someone less
as time passes
but i don't think it's true.
i think about you all the time.
i could never forget you.
you're burned into my brain.

the way you smiled.
the way your eyelashes curled.
i still know every single freckle.
the way your nose is shaped.
your laugh still rings inside my brain.

i'm so sorry that i hurt you.
i'll never forgive myself for losing you.
i should've told you how i had felt
instead of locking it away.
i miss you.