I slit my wrist to feel alive, I am all numb inside. The cuts hurt only for a while but in this moment I actually feel something. I cannot cry anymore because my emotions have died. I am dried up inside and want to feel alive. So I cut my wrist then I cut my legs. Where ever I can get at the pain so I will feel something again. No one understands why I do what I do. I don't want to die, because I am already dead inside. I must find a way to feel alive so I won't be so numb. If only I could feel something other than pain I wouldn't need to cut myself again.