Like I said on the phone with you that very upsetting night.
We both saw a dark sky but you felt a cold chill in the air.
I may have been warm but I was nowhere near pleased with myself.
I behaved as a child in front of you due to your honesty that we shouldn't go further.
You were right despite my devastated heart.
It was all you who carried a genuine heart and you were a man.
A man who listens to one he cares for and has patience.
A man who tells a person who speaks of nothing but their life and problems to stop and say something positive.
You were a man who told me I should think better of myself.
Well,
I have tried.
And from then on and today I just don't know how to respond to men like you.
I knew you were too perfect for me, and thus you are the perfect example of what a man should be.
You respect so graciously and have fun in the best ways.
I could never forget you and your attempt to bring me into your life.
Though it didn't work out for us, and it was only one date, I dare say you were the best I ever had.
I don't love you, just remember you and hope you are doing well.
You did not break my heart. It was already broken.
That should have been my own red flag.
Going back to that night on the phone, something was missing in that apology.
Before I hung up, I should have told you something important.
I never really know how to respond to men who show interest in me.
I have a lot of baggage and thus it's embarrassing.
There are not many men who have stepped up to the plate and wanted me like that.
The others are pictures to burn, but you
are remembered in my mind.
I may not have kept in touch but I keep you in memory just love thinking of your smile as you used to gaze into my eyes.
Even if your eyes are in another her and she makes you smile everyday, you deserve to be happy.
I honestly wouldn't have it any other way.
That very upsetting night, we both agreed you were right.
Being in love
Was wrong.
And you pressed the red button
First.