I denied it for as long as I could,
I of course was in stage one,
Denial,
If I couldn't have you in my life,
I would just be alone,
Alone forever.

I stood there broken inside and out,
Screaming,
Screaming at you and your memories,
I must've been in the rage stage,
Because I would've loved to smack your smug face,
I would've loved to rip out your heart and stomp on it like you did to mine.

I must be in the bargaining stage,
Because I started praying for your return,
I started wishing on every star,
I just hopped,
I would've done anything to have you back.

Gosh stage four was the worst,
Depression,
Cuts,
Blades,
Anything to make the ache in my heart fade,
It lasted what felt like ages,
I cried so much I thought I'd drown in my own tears,
I was truly alone at that point.

Final stage,
Acceptance,
I was always close to it,
But I'm still somewhere between stage 4 and 5,
Depression and Acceptance,
Every time I come close to accepting,
You show up,
Only for a short time,
But long enough to keep me in the middle,
Keep me in limbo,
Feeling somewhere between life and death,
I hope one day stage five will be completed,
I hope you let me,
But apart of me hopes you don't.