I wear my watch on the inside of my wrist keeping time by the pulsing of overfilled veins. If I'm honest, the seconds pass blurry when you are around, red pounding at the blue surface reminding my life of it's vigorous momentum as the watch face marks it's disappearance. I can do nothing about it's circular cycle, nor the manner in which I mirror it, recycling threadbare thoughts and feelings in ostensible new purpose. I am a walking contradiction formed of practical mysticism and coffee stained teeth, spinning poetry from numb fingertips onto the ghosts of birch trees, fleeing from my wildest dreams. Meet me, half way between belief and reality at the junction of duality and I'll reveal I have no true identity - no creed no name no history, only chaotic shifting and angry bumblebees drilling sinkholes for visitors toes to curl into as they fashion temporary homes in me. I am solar soliloquy. Astrological antiquity curses me to orbit you habitually. Eye of the storm, hand of the beast, souls of the many downtrodden and hungry, asking for shoulders to stand upon shaky. Grant me your three wishes, and I will conjure infinity from our palms clasped tight in secrecy. Tell me, neglectful lover, when did my beauty become a pleasurable void, to be touched yet left unseen, when did my spirit become matter buried under the mind of desire and empty chatter. Humor me, say that the meeting of our skin is more than physical proximity say, that you dream of my flowers growing from your ribcage say, that the gods granted us an opportunity for greatness, say that our kiss is a portal to Andromeda and that you could get lost there forever - I know I have. Yet, even light years away I hear the tick tocking ticktick of my heart bleeding into itself. I am fleeting. I am deafening. I am a forgetful timekeeper,