i wear ancient friendship anklets chipped toenail polish, a gritty smile on my face sunshine seeping under my fingernails i walk on the top of the railguard and look down over and over teetering.
see the ditch, see the road, see the trees. can't see the forest but i see the trees and i feel a nearness to the wild undergrowth missing that blank, trodden look of a ground too often explored i crouch in the ferns and remember the feeling that i lost.
hair smelling like wind and earth and sky fists against the trunk of the tree in a forest i can't see i fight the bigness of it all i fight against the all encompassing picture that threatens to lose me lose this tree i chip off the bark and put it in my pocket. lose the tree, but still have a piece
i stand in a forest that i refuse to see comforting the trees battling the sky screaming at the crowded leaves dead friendship anklets dragging me