Every time I look into a mirror,
I stand there,
Silently staring at my reflection,
Making funny faces at first,
But the smiles fade,
I look past them and see what others sometimes see,
The chubby,rosy red cheeked girl,
The one that isn't skinny,
And isn't the pretty or popular one,
The girl who reads and writes for fun,
The one who struggles with life each day,
They don't see it,
They don't want to,
They see the bad in me,Always,
They never see,
See my smile or laughter,
My eyes that glow when I write,
My scars and understand that none are fresh,
They never see how hard I try,
They only see how often I fail,
They only see my dullness,
Never my randomness,
They see my tears and hate me for them,
They see my scars and think it's all I do,
But it's my past,
They can't see how hard living is for me,
And most of all they don't see how hard they make it for me.