no conventions
getting lost in this world
looking within to find the pearl
thoughts permeate being
leaving flesh stagnant from action

creative endeavors
words slipping
sludge dripping
starting over the chapters
relaunching, rebooting life
losing myself in the night

in the night
stirring
fever
hotter than these 113 degree days
laying in the black top
wasting away
wasting away

incomplete measures
stolen treasures
subconscious stream overflow
pull over truck
to unload
this heavy weight
cant believe its the 20th date
sands of times falling down
got no umbrella; taken by a clown
with a frown
because he always got caught in the rain
refrain from vengeance
i look away from wrath
taking one glance will stray me from the path
watch the thoughts
see it in motion
break free from the machine
apply the ointment
anointment of divine rite
blind sight
got me from seeing whats really there
but i pick up on it using other senses
lost it
lost it lost it lost it lost it lost
oppressive regime got me falling through the floors
tearing apart at the seams
this illusion is not what it seams
but why can i not manipulate it
what is it that im missing
off balance
outta track
gotta keep writing to keep the fluttering sensations from leaving
catalyst will lead to grieving
fun days dripping from the canvas into the bucket
sealed from the crisp air of life automatic writing to find out whats going on with me losing all touch with reality the nonsense rolls on where are these words coming from feeling numb sedation got the best of me but im happy really happy that i keep going i just want to step up the game and push like never before push psuh push but i just cant keep up redwcferjn  jnkjlemw fnhnelomkl;,'

i never give up
always looking up to marvel the beauty
switch the style
switch the style
i only do it for myself
to discover unknown features
unknown feelings
uncharted territory
lands as far as i can not see

what are my goals
what are my ambitions
guess i better keep fishing