Because I can't afford to talk or be 'friend' with you right now
because I'd be lying to myself and to you
because I don't wanna just talk to you or be 'friend' with you
because small talk with you kills me and being your friend means knowing when one day u find another  
because that'd **** me too
because I can't know that
because I'd be jealous
because I don't want you to
because I still love you.
Because that's the reason for everything
Because I still love you very much.