I wish I could stop
turn off a switch in my brain
make the feelings go away

Emotions are beautiful
until they're ripping through you
at night with clawed memories

I worry, I fear that the pain
will last longer than it should
because I want to move on from this

I wish I could have thoughts as
beautiful as the world I saw in your eyes
but I'm indifferent, I lack clarity

I wish I wasn't just another sad girl