I always said
I was no angel
with all my human needs
with every single
stark defect
all the faults and flaws in me
I never tried
to mend a heart
tamed my demon honesty
I only meant
to tell the truth
just to show the way I feel
I said
I wasn't perfect though
and I've proven not to be
But all along
I told the truth
my feelings, sharing freely
Idealistic,
hopes aspired
to see what sounded true
and though I was
'authentic me'
I was so confused
Instead of finding
answers
Only questions echoed back
and I was
always certain
to see more of what I lacked
Never feeling safe,
secure
in who I could believe
I finally accepted facts
and recognized
the real
considering
other's attributes
I had confused with me
I had a skewed
perspective
and a fragile self esteem
Fostered
by the fantasies
of completely selfish dreams
I always said
I was no angel....
I was always only me.
By Cheryl Klassen